Friday, February 14, 2003

Today I'm not looking forward to the commute. It will be snowing. People will piss me off, no doubt about it. I'm leaving work purposely at 4:00 so that I have three and a half hours before the reservations for dinner with Donna tonight. If I don't make it, I'm going to go on a rampage. I swear it.

Otherwise, I feel all right. I love snow, but I hate people. I'm actually hoping through some random act of God I am stuck in traffic and a news crew comes up to me and asks me a question so I can say, "I've got a great idea. How about all you people out there who bought plastic and duct tape seal your heads and suffocate yourselves so that our roads are clearer?"

That would be epic.

Thursday, February 13, 2003

Briefly, I hate Haloscan (the comments provider). I've hit a true record 12 comments on the last post, and Haloscan is screwing it all up! Bastards. ;) Continue commenting on the war if you so desire...

I had quite a haunting dream last night. Now, as you may know, everyone dreams every night...it's just whether you remember it or not. Usually, when I remember them, they're very vivid. Tonight was a prime example...so I thought I'd share.

It started out with me in some mall, trying to buy Super Bowl souvenirs. I ended up buying a dozen beach towels because they were on sale for $1 apiece, since it was after the Super Bowl. However, there was much urgency in the air, as though that place wouldn't be there anymore soon. But I bought them. Then, my brain kind of fast-forwarded in time.

I was at my parents' house, and Chicago had been invaded during war. Ground troops were marching from downtown and had made it not far from my neighborhood in their efforts to get to Midway Airport. My dream picked up as some military man had come to our back door to tell us the military was clearing everyone out because the enemy (whoever it was) had made it to Western, which was four blocks east, and they were marching fast. You could hear the artillery and gunfire in the distance. Strangely, my brother Tim was not there. I don't know if he was off at war, or what, but it didn't seem to be a sad reason...I don't know. So we tried to gather up a few things, and I went to the ATM, conveniently on our front porch (my dreams can be weird). I could see the gunfire on 50th street going back and forth, so I knew there was little time. I decided it would be better to leave my money in the bank than carry it around, especially if I were captured. I then saw the neighbor's youngest daughter frantically ringing their doorbell, crying to be let in the house. I told her to run over to our house and she could escape with us, but she was scared to run over. The door did open moments later and I told our neighbor good luck and goodbye.

I went back in the house, and my dad was ready to go to the ATM (which is weird, because I don't think my parents have an ATM card). I told him we didn't have anymore time, and convinced him that leaving the money in the bank was best anyway, using the line "What if it's like Auschwitz? Leave your money alone or they'll take it from you."

We grabbed our stuff and went out the back door to the alley. There weren't too many people going the route we were, which was through the gangways (between the house across the alley) to the next block over. When I was out on the front porch, there were no military vehicles on our block, so we decided to head west through the gangways until we at least made it to California Ave., three blocks west. We figured there'd be something there, and if not, we could make our way slowly to Berwyn to meet up with Donna, then out to Bolingbrook or Iowa, whichever place was safer and would have us until we could go back to Chicago. The artillery and gunfire was really close now, though I didn't see any explosions or actual soldiers when we went across our alley. A couple of planes flew overhead toward the east, no doubt U.S. planes going in to take out a few ground forces. And that's when I woke up, after seeing the planes fly over my parents' house behind me.

I've seen too many World War II movies, though I haven't seen any recently. I haven't been following the war on terrorism lately either, so that's weird...the Super Bowl stuff, my brain was simply filing those memories away, I think. Otherwise, I don't know...I kind of lay there stunned after I woke up, still somewhat asleep and half-dreaming, half-thinking. I pictured 51st Street, the main east-west thoroughfare right by my house, with fighting to the east and people streaming westward with their possessions, fleeing the enemy. I also flashbacked to the dream, to where we decided to take Harley (my parents' German Shepherd), because she might even provide some protection, but we had to leave poor Smores behind because she wouldn't have moved an inch with all the explosions, since she's scared to death of fireworks and such...plus, she wouldn't last long with her bad hips. That of course, got me thinking of how we'd have been able to do that and if there'd have been any way to put her out of her misery...I don't know...dreams like this make me think like that I guess...I then of course, wondered where Tim was in the whole thing. Both my parents and Eddie were there, but the focus of the dream was the war stuff...imagery-wise, anyway...

Ah well...at least it was an interesting dream, and only haunting, not downright scary or nightmarish...of course, that's a subjective opinion. :) Enjoy your day now!

Monday, February 10, 2003

OK, before I really set my opinion on these things, I want to hear others' thoughts...is there a problem with these things? Are they harmless? Are they cool? I have thoughts, but I want to hear others' thoughts...

What I'm talking about are "Homies," those little figurines that "represent" black people found in several vending machines next to the Sour Grape gumballs and Sweetarts vending machines across America.
Personally, I didn't have a major opinion on them, simply because, you know what? I don't know who "collects" them...I didn't think much about them until I saw that the line has expanded, now to "Mijos," a line of Hispanic figures. I mean, who buys these? Is it rich, ignorant kids with no exposure to "real" blacks or Hispanics? Or do kids in urban settings, who interact with blacks and Hispanics (those that do) all the time actually think these are cool...what's next? Polacks? Micks? Or just general Honkies? Or, is this like with TV, where the only way to get culture into the mix is to stereotype it? Or is it perfectly harmless? I'll share my thoughts later...they're pretty innocent.

Ahh, the always-touchy decision of the day. When do I leave work? I mean, I was hoping to leave by now, but I have a task sitting in front of me. Problem is, I can't do it until someone else gets out of the file. It kinda sucks...I'm not going to ask him to let me get in it first, because why should he have to extend his day for my little task...so I wait. Without much to do too...plus, I'm strangely getting the teensy pangs of hunger...even though I had a decent-sized lunch from Panera Bread. Ah well...

Sunday, February 09, 2003

I would say that taping Luis' "Survivor" audition went well, but I guess we won't REALLY know how it went until they accept or reject him. Donna is editing it as we speak and it should be ready to be sent overnight mail tomorrow--it's due in their hands on Tuesday. But it was all right...drove all over the Southwest Side and downtown and shot a few things in different places. It wasn't as cold as I thought it would be, but it was cold.

Strangely, though I was up until 3am yesterday, I feel tired now, and it's 9:15. Go figure...maybe I'll get a second wind...maybe I won't. I guess it doesn't really matter though, as I don't have much that I "have to do."

Oh yeah, and I forgot in my last post...after I sang "Bad, Bad Leroy Brown," I was walking off stage to applause and such, and two guys are like, "Yeah, good job! Dude, you ARE Leroy Brown, man!" I found that funny...I just said, "Thanks." and walked by. I wanted to say, "Dude, thanks for the insult...do you listen to the words? He gets his ass kicked, if not killed. I appreciate the thought, but at least call me the dude who beat Leroy's ass." Whatever. :)

So, that's all for now...

Well, I had a nice blog typed out, and then my stupid IE locked up, so I lost it...so now you get the brief version, because I'm pissed.
Just got up, it's noon.
Went to a karaoke bar, "Trader Todd's" on Sheffield just north of Belmont with Donna, Barb and Pete and a couple of their friends last night.
Brought the house down with stunning rendition of "Bad, Bad Leroy Brown" by Jim Croce.
Disappointed there was no "Hello, I Love You" by the Doors, so sang "Lump" by Presidents of the U.S.A. instead...warm reception at best.
Got home at 3 a.m., could have been later, but Barb and Pete's drunk friend spilled his Mai Tai on Barb's knee, so we left frustrated.
Today, gonna get lunch.
Then me and Donna are going to help Luis film a video for his application to be on "Survivor."
I hope he makes it, because he already promised me a bit of the dough if he wins, since I'm helping him out. :) Of course, I believe he'll be the first one voted off if he makes it.
He says I'm perfect to do the video, because I don't know what they're looking for since I don't watch the show, and I know him best. Or something like that.
So, off to lunch and then videoing...